Today is a proud day. I have finally sat my last exam at university. I have been struggling so hard with my studies for the last 3 years, I mean I’m not going to say I’m dumb or stupid but academically I struggle in certain situations especially when it comes to exams and revision.
My grades at the start of my course were for me, fantastic. I put every ounce of effort into my studies. Going into my second year the course got harder and I started to find the course a lot more difficult. I even stopped going for a while with the intention to quit. Lucky enough my boyfriend talked me out of it and I managed to gain the motivation to crack on and continue. It has in no way shape or form been easy, in fact it’s probably been one of the most stressful things I have done.
The last and final year of my studies has been at times unbearable. Life at home changed and this meant I needed to take on more hours at work going from 16 hours a week to 45 hours and 2 sleep ins. Managing the course work alongside work has seemed impossible and I don’t even have an explanation for how I have coped, but I have! I lost contact with a lot of my friends due to not having the time to hang out and socialise. Work and uni literally took over my life and there was moments I forgot why i was even bothering in the first place.
To those who are struggling with studies or even just life in general DO NOT give up, it at times can seem the easiest thing to do. Stress can tip you over the edge and it becomes easy to forget why you’re doing it in the first place. I have had to remind myself constantly through the last three years the main reason why I wanted to get a degree in the first place and I have had to focus on my reason to get me through and continue. My grades are not going to be fantastic. I am looking at leaving university with a third, to some this may seem pointless but to me it is the biggest accomplishment I have achieved. I think it doesn’t matter how good or bad you do, as long as you give it everything you can. I couldn’t have tried any harder and for that reason regardless of the final outcome of my grades I am proud of myself and for anyone else in a similar situation, or anyone who has completed a degree in general for that matter!
Moving forward I’m not sure what my next chapter will be. Another thing to mention is that when you are at university and studying a certain subject it becomes vital for some people to get a caarer in that field. This doesn’t need to be the case and in my case it probably won’t be. I already am in a job that I love, however money wise it isn’t great so eventually I will look to progress further and see what options are out there for me and my new degree!
Lastly, without sounding patronising I just want to say a huge well done to everyone who has just completed their degree, handed in their dissertations or sitting their final exams like me. It’s hard work but it is so worth it!